What's In It For Me?
Hello dear blog readers! Geez it's been a minute since I have written a blog for drunkless. I have no excuses, nor really any good reasons. Just being lazy is all. You see, I can be super undisciplined. An administrator of drunkless.com lets me know that there is never any pressure to write and post blogs for this website. He is the one who makes sure my blogs get posted once I write them. He is appreciative when I do but never demands it of me. So when he gives me permission to not do it, I tend to take the easier softer way, which this past month has shown is doing nothing at all. It’s not like blogging is hard or bothersome, but when given the option to do, or not to do it, I choose not.
Unless there is something in it for me.
Ouch. Yes I just said that. And I just realized that just as I was writing it. That sounds really awful I know, but hey it’s the truth.
So I got to thinking, “Why do I blog? Why tell stories of my recovery each week?” It’s not my job, I don’t get paid. It’s not like school or work where I have to do it. But yet I want to. Part of me feels good about myself sticking to something. I once heard someone say, “If you want self-esteem you gotta do esteem-able acts.” Well there ya go.
Another reason is because it helps me reflect on all recovery has given me. As I share my experiences with you, I am sharing them with myself. I like reminding myself of and re-living all the small miracles I have experienced over the past years while in recovery. It is a good reminder to me and helps keep it fresh in my mind. I even find myself sharing in meetings the things I blog about. It’s like keeping a log, or I guess you could say a journal of my journey through this. It keeps my recovery active in a whole new way.
Also last but not least I share my experiences with the world in hopes that it just might help another alcoholic to achieve sobriety. I found a solution to a seemingly hopeless state of body and mind, and I want everyone afflicted with this disease to find it too. In closing, I will quote Dr. Bob, a co-founder of AA from pages 180-181 in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous;
“I spend a great deal of time passing on what I learned to others who want and need it badly. I do it for four reasons:
1. Sense of duty.
2. It is a pleasure.
3. Because in doing so I am paying my debt to the man who took time to pass it on to me.
4. Because every time I do it I take out a little more insurance for myself against a possible slip.”
So you see, I do get something (many somethings) from it after all.