Holy goodness I have been super duper busy lately. My work has been busy and I’m picking up a bunch of hours. I haven’t had time to take care of things around the house, run errands or connect with friends. As for recovery, where is the time for that? Uh oh. That is a dangerous statement for an alcoholic like me. I am so busy with this wonderful job and great life (all that I owe to my recovery) that sometimes recovery doesn’t come first. There’s an old saying that says, “Don’t let the life AA gave you get in the way of your AA way of life.” To me that means I can’t forget what I am and where I came from. I came into the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous a mess. I had what some might say resembled a life, but to me all was falling apart around me. I began working the program with the desperation of a drowning man, because at that time that is exactly what I was- a drowning woman in desperate need of saving. Thankfully I hung on and God worked his magic and with the wonderful support of those around me and my willingness to try what was suggested, I got my life together. And let me tell you it is a great life. But they also say I cannot keep what I have unless I give it away. I have mentioned before and it is a belief of mine that the spiritual way of life I have found has got to be practiced regularly. I am not just recovered and am done. I have a disease for which there is no cure, but the symptoms can simply be arrested. Meetings, working with others, and contact with God are all what I call my medicine. I have got to take it regularly if I wish to keep this disease at bay. When I am really busy, sometimes it can be hard to practice my program to the fullest. But there is always a way to stay connected. I don’t have to dedicate hours a day to my recovery, but something, no matter how small can be sufficient. I have mentioned before that the first five minutes in the morning is an absolute fantastic way to get some recovery in right off the bat. I always am sure to say the 3rd step prayer which goes as follows:
“God I offer myself to Thee to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy power Thy love and Thy way of life. May I do Thy will always.”
There. That simple prayer is enough to know I am protected as the day gets going. I can find ten million things to do “just real quick” before I get to anything recovery based. Then before I know it those “just real quick” things have taken my whole day. That is why it is important for me to realize the power of simply taking a moment to chill. Literally even if it is only ten seconds to stop and look around and thank God for what I have. Today at work was a perfect example, and the idea for this blog. I was at work running around like crazy getting caught up in everything going on. Then a friend I work with stepped up behind me and started massaging my shoulders. My first thought was to jerk away in annoyance. Doesn’t she see I have a lot going on? I don’t have time for this! Then I realized, yes I do. Five or ten seconds is not going to make or break my day and it gave me a second to reconnect with myself and the universe.
So really, there is always time for recovery. For me it is a choice. I can “just real quick” myself through the day or I can stop, breath and realize what I am doing this all for. I am doing it for myself so that I can have a great life in recovery. I am doing it for the next suffering alcoholic so that when needed I may be of service. I am doing it for God, so He can use me as He sees fit throughout the day.