My 365 Day Voyage: Life Will Never Be the Same Again
BY: TAMI HARPER WINN
If someone told you that by the end of this year you would be in a completely different place than you are today, a completely different person, and that you had the choice to design what that looked like, would you take the challenge if it was presented? What if I told you it was possible, that it wasn’t only just possible but highly likely? Would you be brave enough to take the challenge? That exact challenge was presented to me through what I like to call Divine Inspiration. I am offering you that same challenge today. You can start immediately – if you choose.
The poem Invictus by William Ernest Henley sums it up best, “I am the Master of my fate. I am the Captain of my soul”. My dear friend who recently found me via social media introduced me to this poem. It has resonated with me in ways I have only just begun to tap into. You see, I am the one who decides the course of my sail. When the seas are tempest or whether they are calm, I am in charge of adjusting my sails accordingly. We all are.
Now, I know that my higher power is the one who controls the tides of the sea but I have the boat and am in charge of my ship. He gave me the boat and the knowledge to be able to navigate the sea and the tides. He trusts me and I trust him. We are voyagers together on this course and my faith is unfaltering.
With that said, I took the challenge presented to me by Divine Inspiration and I opted to see if it stood the test of authenticity. This year would be the year I realized I was the Captain of my soul. I had the ability to chart the course and adjust accordingly. My past experiences have taught me that. In fact, this last year has been a form of schooling for this adventure that I am embarking on.
These waters are uncharted. I have never set out to accomplish such a grand feat. Starting January 1st, 2017 I made a commitment to myself and to my higher power to take control of this boat I was on and do the impossible – create a whole new course. I was on a mission to find buried treasure, uninhabited islands, discover life that had yet to be discovered. I would be the Jacque Cousteau of my own life.
Starting in January I began to map out what this next year would entail. I studied my past experiences and set out to chart my journey according to what I had already learned. Every year millions of people around the world make New Year’s Resolutions and over half of them fail to continue on with them before the month of January is even over. Heck, its hard to keep the momentum going without someone else there going the distance with you. Even then, its still hard.
Each month I would embark on a monthly resolution to discover some new part of me that needed growth, nurturing, love, and a chance to shine. I would find the hidden gems that were inside me and let them shine for all the world, and more importantly me, to see. Each month would hold its own separate challenge – a new one. I would hold myself accountable to my friends and others through the help of social media and other forums. This helps to encourage me and keep my resolve.
Getting sober isn’t just about not drinking. Its about living and loving and dreaming and doing. I needed to know what this felt like. So after a year of death and grief, I decided to celebrate my parent’s life and live mine finally.
Many of you will watch from the shorelines as I travel across this crazy sea called life. Some of you may disapprove of how I sail or the direction I’m headed. Have no fear. I am the Master of my fate and my higher power is the Master of me. I will persevere. I am hoping that those of you who watch me on this journey will be encouraged to build your own boat and chart your own course. I am hoping you will join me on the wide open sea of life and discover all the wonders we have yet to experience.
It all begins within. It all begins with me. I must find out who Tami really is and what she is capable of, or I fear I may just wither away and die. I do not want to die - not at all. By the end of this journey I am determined to arrive at the point my higher power is gently leading me too with a completely new understanding and respect for my purpose here on earth.
I know that my true essence is love. I know that love heals all wounds. I know that the power of love can change the world, but first it must change me. I am in dire need of self love – of love period. This kind of love is a love that only my relationship with my higher power and my own self can give to me. Nothing outside of me can quench my thirst for this type of love. I will never be satisfied until I know what unconditional love for myself feels like. I can never give it to you until I can first give it to myself.
So, here we are in February. We are just setting sail. The horizon is bright and I can see ahead of me – for now. I am resting in the lull of the waves and breathing in the experiences I am having with my monthly resolutions. I’ve taken on new adventures that I have feared in the past, such as starting my group on Facebook called My Coloring Book Called ”LIFE”. This is a group that I felt compelled to set up, as if led by unseen forces. I knew this world was in such a place of pain and hurt that it was literally bleeding out. It pained my heart deeply to see the social media sites flooded with the rivers of anger and fear, that I moved to do something different – hence the page.
I adjusted my sail accordingly and decided to put love to the test. This page would become my safe haven away from all the rest of the crazy social media world, where I could plug in to positivity and love. I wanted it to be a place where others could grab a cup of social media coffee and find refuge within the words and gifts shared there as well. It would be my Captain’s Log and their dairy to share words of encouragement and enlightenment with each other. It has received strong praise so far. People are drowning in negativity all around them. They too are searching for the beacon of light on the shoreline. I can feel their desperation and need.
I do not know what lies up ahead. I have my course charted, but as we all know, I do not control the tides. I pray for a safe passage. I will pray for yours as well. I would love more than anything to have others join me on this journey, but if not then at least cheer me on from the shores. I am intimidated but exhilarated at the same time. I know without a doubt that this same time next year, God-willing, I will be a completely different person. But the most awesome part of that statement is that I will have had a large part in who that person will be. Wow! Intense!
Think about that for a moment. I have just given you the same opportunity afforded to me – to chart your own destiny. You have the opportunity to not have to do this alone, but with me and others like me. You too can have a say-so in what you will become one year from now if you trust in the powers that be and take a leap of faith. I’ll be there – right beside you riding the waves together. See you when the water meets the sunset. Bon Voyage my friends and safe travels no matter where you are. Light and love.
~ Tami Harper Winn ~
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