Four Years - TODAY
Due to a special event today, Tami Harper Winn's typical Thursday post will come out tomorrow (this Friday, 9/22) instead of on her regular Thursday schedule. Thank you, Tami, for allowing me to steal the thunder on my Sobriety Birthday! I love you lots! :)
It's been a long drive, it seems. Four years. I'm sitting here, on my bed, last-minute style, putting on my finishing touches to the above graphic. Every year since year-two I began creating sobriety logos, I just do it by how it feels at the moment I start creating it. Last year, it was just a clean, simple number 3. I liked it. That's what I was trying to do year three I think - keep it simple and clean cut. Eh, I don't know that I accomplished either the simple or clean cut parts, but I did accomplish the three years...
And now the four.
I can't believe I'm four years old in sobriety. When I first started, and I hit year one, it didn't mean anything to me. I was still in a fog and unsure that I would actually make it, so year one was just another day where I struggled to survive. But by year two, it became a reality.
It's been with the help of many, many people in my life that I've made it this far. I've not done this alone. With my ever-changing-concept of my HP, to my family, to my friends, and all the groups I attend, from counseling, to AA, to recovery center meetings, to individual meetups and even some co-workers, without them and their support, I would have failed.
But I'm not without them. So I've succeeded thus far.
As I stated yesterday in my Today, In History post, I am as susceptible as the next person to fall off and go back out, with only two exceptions: 1) I want this sobriety so bad that I work at it on a daily basis, all day long, to live in recovery. And 2) I have support. All kinds of support. I have no excuse. And it's because of all my support, my HP included, that I have made it thus far. I am constantly amazed by the people I've met, people I've watched grow, and those I've grown closest to. I love all of my family, from blood-line to given - I'm a blessed man. None of this would have mattered if I was still in my addiction, or more realistically, if I had been dead.
So today, I happily celebrate my four year D.O.S. with great joy and rightful-pride (not boastful or arrogant), and I give credit to all those that have been here with me - and to me for not giving up.
It is a possiblity to do this! It is also some simple, hard work. But it's work that has been worth it, so I just keep coming back. Twenty-four more hours, and I'll have one more day, and that starts in two minutes.
Good night, my friends...