By: Michael Barr
I have some feelings I need to release before I can ever rest in peace.
Anger, frustration, rage, and confusion. I've wrapped myself
in a deadly illusion.
Sadness and pain are gripping my heart. Don't know how to express
it or where to start.
I sit here and lash out at all of my peers, too scared to to be seen
letting go of some tears.
Trying to be cool and shit sticking around. What I have
to do is settle myself down.
I'll think about what I need to do to finally let my
feelings get through.
I've bottled them in and pressed them in tight. I know they
wont leave without a fight.
I need to let this side of me go, but my release of emotions
will have to be slow.
For if I let all of them go right here, I will lose my mind and
hurt all those near.
I know it's a stupid mental block, I guess I need to change
my self talk.
I need to tell myself', "don't be afraid", this mental block is
something I made.
Which means that I can take it apart, even though it may
break my heart.
I've got to get rid of my held in feelings before I can stop
my criminal dealings.
I've got to let out all of my pain, It will only be for my personal gain.
I think I can really do it this time, and permanently end
my life of crime.
I'll go back home to my family and friends. this is my start,
we'll see where it ends.