And the beat goes on...
And the beat goes on...
The weather recently has been about as fickle as anything, with freezing rain one week, then 70° days, then back to cold.
I'm on top of this type of thing, right about now, because I'm in between jobs. In the last year I've lost more jobs than I can remember losing in the decade before that. I'm doing all I can to get some kind of income, but it's not easy staying positive when my man is busting his butt every day to take care of us. I feel a heavy cloud descending on me every couple of days, and it's hard to keep from mentally beating myself up. (Perfectionism is a hard habit to break, don't you think?)
So, in addition to sucking up way too much TV, I've been staying fairly isolated. I know, not the most productive past-times.
I was texting with a friend the other day about clues within text messages. Specifically, I told her how a few months ago, before I got my meds adjusted, I rarely used exclamation points. Now, as I've been (overall) able to get out from under the suffocating clouds of depression, I use the "!" much more often!
I just can't -or won't, you decide- bring myself to pretend like I'm happy and engaged in life on the days when I'm not feeling it. Nowadays, I'm using "!" on a fairly frequent basis. So, now you know something about me that most folks will never know.
File it under "reading between the lines".
So, with all this free time, I've been able to hang out with Goldie, our (neighbor's) hen! I get so tickled when I step outside & see her with her wings back and head down RUNNING over to me (I know it's cos she knows I'll feed her, but I can pretend it's deeper than that). And when I walk around the yard and she's silently walking beside me.
I have been lightly petting her back when she's eating from my hand. I swear, as much as a person COULD talk without lips, she says "Stop it!" to me. Yes, that's right, now I'm talking to chickens. Don't you judge me!
So, I'm sorry I didn't get a post up last week, but it's hard to find anything worth saying when my feelings are weighing on me.
If you're interested, there's a new post up @ www.abbieinwondrland.wordpress.com
And occasionally I'll pop in to check out the #Recoveryposse on Twitter @ abbie_grrl
God bless you and good night/morning/afternoon.
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