BY: TAMI HARPER WINN
The calendar greets me every morning that I get my keys to leave for the day. There are thirty-one days in this month and by the time you read this, the month of March will nearly be over. That means that almost three months have passed since we started the year of 2017. That’s a quarter of the year already over. In real time, that is fast. So, as a check-in, where are you at as we hit this milestone for the year? I’d love to hear your stories. Let’s keep it real – touch base on our progress. I’ll start first.
By the time you read this I will actually be on the Golden Gate Bridge, cruising China Town, exploring Alcatraz, or riding a trolley through the beautiful city of San Francisco on my actual belly-button birthday. Another year has passed and I am one day older. The calendar that greets me everyday is a constant reminder that all I have is today to live the life I want. I am not promised tomorrow.
I started this year lip-locked with a young Italian man in Sacramento, California. I began what I did not know then, would be my year of fulfillment. I started with a resolution to complete one month of saying “No” to things that were blocking my spiritual connection – impeding my overall recovery. Hence, the #YesFast began.
By February I was up to a new challenge to help make it through what I knew would be a difficult month for me with a painful anniversary hitting its year mark. So the #Love challenge was born to keep me focused on the good. It propelled me in undefinable ways. That month I flew off to Mexico on a whim to visit a friend in recovery as a way to celebrate life. That experience changed me forever. I learned the true meaning of love on a beach watching a tequila sunset. I experienced love and also understood I was capable of giving love as well. Not only was I deserving of it, so was everyone else.
By the end of February, my fire was being fueled with the positive responses I was getting from keeping myself accountable on social media. I was surprised at the feedback I was getting. I had begun this trek for me, and it had grown into its own beautiful creation with others feeling compelled to participate in their own ways.
So as each month lent itself to the next, it was only fitting that I define what I needed in order to have the type of recovery for myself that I deserved – the type of recovery my higher power intended for me all along. I set off into March with the #AbsoluteYes resolution, which is a list I compiled in a hammock while in Mexico. I discovered truths about myself in that hammock, so March seemed fitting to put them into action.
That leads us to where we are today. I am busy living life to its fullest, enjoying every crumb and morsel. I am finally truly happy, joyous, and free. This month I have begun the practice of making sure my #AbsoluteYes’s were carried out. One of those is to travel once a month to somewhere I’ve never been. I need to travel. I need to discover. I need self-reflection time. I need to be with me and God. So as you are reading this I am busy putting into practice another #AbsoluteYes for me. I plan on going on up the coast to the Redwoods, Glass Beach, and along the coastline to Hollywood after San Francisco, then to Vegas and home. I absolutely love my life.
Along the way, I plan on experiencing recovery in new places – sharing my story and making new friends. Each month so far this year I have been blessed by my higher power to experience recovery in a different place. My recovery network is growing, hopefully one day globally.
On social media I have met so many wonderful people, that I try each time I travel to find them while in my travels and connect with them face-to-face. Each one has impacted me in ways I can never repay. Maybe one day I’ll be headed your way. I hope if I do, there is a warm smile and hug waiting for me.
But for now, I am on a quest of self-discovery and self-care. By the time I get back from my birthday celebration I should have an idea of where I am going next month. Yes, I’m continuing forward with my monthly resolutions. I have learned so much about myself, my recovery, my life, my dreams, and my God.
I have a new addiction I suppose. I am addicted to healthy recovery. This time I am not a greedy user; I am overly-happy to share it with everyone I come in contact with. They told me in recovery that God could and would if he were sought. They also instilled in me that only God could do for me what I could not do for myself. How right they were. I could’ve never patched this quilt I call my life, together. I am so glad I did not leave before the miracle happened – it’s an infinite gift as long as I do what I’ve done and just don’t drink today.
I am not sure who I will be by the end of this journey. It doesn’t even matter if you want me to be brutally honest. I know today that no matter where I am, God is there too. With that knowledge I am able to rest and enjoy the ride. He’s carried me this far and I’ve survived 100% of everything in my life up until today, why would he drop me now? No matter what comes, I’ll be okay. What a peaceful feeling that is. So, sit back and enjoy the ride with me – God’s got this.
~ Tami Harper Winn ~
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Where are you at so far this year? Have you managed to find a piece or pieces of healthy recovery you can apply to your life today? Did you make any New Year’s Resolutions? If so, how are you doing on them? Have you taken part in my monthly challenges and if so, how have they applied to your life today? I want to know where you are in your recovery. Don’t worry if you are not anywhere near where I am. You are right where you are supposed to be. If you are just starting your recovery, welcome home. We’ve been waiting for you. I’d like to hear your stories about where you are at in your recovery now that we are a quarter of the way through this year. Please leave a comment below so I can follow you and be a source of strength and encouragement for you. Thank you for taking your valuable time to read this. Be blessed in your journeys.