On a short note -- er, blog...
Once again I find myself short on time. This missing-days-of-blogging-because-I'm-too-tired has got to stop! I made a commitment to "nearly daily," therefore, I am "nearly-dailying" right now. Just to fulfill my dedication to me -- hold myself accountable for my own goals.
This is an important thing for those of us learning/relearning to live life in recovery. How many times have we seen alcoholics and addicts make commitments, only to back out? This is by no means an accusation, nor a blame of fault. It is, in fact, a very true statement! We say we'll do it, then we don't.
It is important to be a person of our word, "Let our Yes be Yes, and our No be No." How can people believe us if we aren't? It takes consistent-honesty before trust can be built. That's just how it is.
HOWEVER; we cannot commit to everything, nor should we. As much as it is important to fulfill our obligations, wether to others or to ourselves, it is equally as important to remember to take care of ourselves first! We cannot help pull a person out of a self-loathing pit if we are in a Pit of Despair ourselves!
These are obvious things, I realize this. But I, for one, have a big knack for overlooking the obvious, hence the above reminder -- hence tonight's very blog! Short as it may be (it is after 4:00AM after all), I am fulfilling a promise to myself that I will blog on a regular basis. Quality blog? Well, if working in a head-fog can produce quality work, then I'd say it's at the hands of my Higher Power. She surely can do some neat tricks with me; but I wouldn't count on a best-seller (or maybe!). Nevertheless, I am doing for myself what I'd promised I would do -- complete my blog commitment.
Ultimately, if I can get thirteen blogs up on a two week period, I'm okay with that. Miss many more days that two per month, I'm not doing myself any good -- nor anyone else. Lead by example, right?
Besides, two and a half years ago, the only projects I worked through were the ones I drunkenly dreamed about completing -- but never started. Today, I actually put that dream-muscle to work. I'm committed to my self improvement. Why? Because I want to be of service to my fellows in life.
So I am.
Of course, one could question whether or not doing the blog around 4:00 in the morning is more important than getting my sleep. Hmmm.
P.S. -- I'm going to bed now.