As an active alcoholic, I strived to fit in. Sure I had tons of friends, and they were around all the time – as long as I had what they wanted. At the end of my drinking career, I spent $5,000 in three months. All of it on alcohol and other alcohol-related escapades. I wanted to drink and I wanted friends. I would ask a friend to go to the bar with me but they were always broke. “No problem” I would say. “I’ll buy you a beer!” As we all know, alcoholics never have one beer. A typical night would consist of me financing the bar tab, which never sunk below $100. Then we would need beer to take home after the bar closed, and a bagful of tacos to satisfy our “drunk munchies” as I used to call it. Throw in cab rides and cover fees and you can see how easy it is to blow through five grand so quick.
Oh, how different life is today. I have actual friends. Friends that will hang around me for no reason other than to share a good laugh with me. In fact, I get more invitations to simply sit down and have coffee than I can count. People like me for me. I don’t have to buy people's friendships today. Some people like me and some people don’t, and that’s OK. The most valuable thing I give and receive today is each other’s company. I love those who surround me today. No surprises, no cheating and stealing or lying. I have been told water seeks its own level. By surrounding myself with good people, I myself get a little better every day.
I do it because it works.
I do it because I live a life of recovery.