Need vs Want
I want a nice car. I want to be happy. I want to fall in love with Mr. Perfect. I want… well I could really go on forever. Did I ever say I wanted to hit a drunken bottom, a spiritual death? No. Did I ever say I wanted to go to prison? No. Although I would never have thought so at the time, I’m grateful those things happened. They spurred the actions that led me to a better life.
When I am in a difficult, troubled or all-around bad situation, my first thought was always to pray for what I wanted. Even to this day. I always seem to know how I want things to go. During my journey in recovery, however, I have learned to ask for His will to be done. I don’t really know what I want or need, but I know He does. His outcomes are ALWAYS what I need, different than what I wanted and often times better.
Praying for what I want = praying for my will. Praying for what I need = praying for His will.
I do it because it works.
I do it because I live a life of recovery.