CS Lewis once said: If I discover within myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.
What an amazing man CS Lewis was. I love his writing. The quote above absolutely speaks to me. This evening I went to a meeting. Afterwards we were all sitting around chewing the fat. So many different conversations were going on. As I listen to the laughter fill the room. Then suddenly I was revisited by old familiar feeling. I felt like I was sitting in a room full of people and I was all alone. I haven't felt that feeling in a long time. Normally im the life of the party. Mixed in all the conversations, laughing and joking. Tonight was definitely the exception though. As I drove home I thought to myself. I wonder why I feel this way?! I'm doing the work.(Aka the 12 steps/being of service) suddenly the thought crossed my mind. Prayer and meditation. I've heard it said that praying is talking to God and meditation is listening for God's answers. Today I realize that feeling means there's something off and I need to connect my higher power. You hear it all the time in the rooms. Pain is the touchstone for spiritual growth. That's a hard pill to swallow sometimes! I don't know anybody that wants to be in pain. But that's reality. I'm happy to say that feeling subsided. While I may have been made for another world,as the quote above says. While I'm here in this world I have to develop a relationship with my higher power. I want to be happy, joyous and free! I want the life that AA promises me & only God can make that possible!!! I'll leave you with this.
In God there is no hunger that needs to be filled, only plenteousness that desires to give. CS Lewis