We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.
Man that quote hit me like a ton of bricks! Today was just one of those days. You know spiritual growth is just tough sometimes! One of the many gifts of recovery is that I get to feel today, to feel immense joy & happiness. The flip side of that coin is I get to feel heartache & pain.
In my addiction I would run from the pain. I didn't want to feel heartache. So I would get high so as to not feel. Today that well is all dried up and I can no longer travel down that road. I have to feel the pain and walk through it.
Luckily in recovery I have a solution today "a spiritual tool kit that has been laid at my feet.(AA big book) The trick is picking up the tools when life isn't going my way. Some of the most beautiful people I know or have read about have walked through some serious stuff. These are the people that I consider spiritual giants in my life. Not because there's churches erected in their names or they have a great following from the masses. Ultimately it's because I can see the power of God working in their lives. Their actions match up with their words.
Pain and experience have the ability to refine us. They also have the ability to make us jaded to life. The differences is whether we pick up that spiritual toolkit or not. Hopefully we do.
There's just no getting around it. Some days are going to hurt & im going to wish i could crawl in bed & tune the world out. But if I want to stay sober, I have to take action; I can no longer run from life. Because of the tools in my life today I've learned, even though today was tough; it was only difficult for a little while & wouldn't you know it, I made it through the storm.
"life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain; if you can't dance at least roll in the mud😜