HOW WE STARTED:
When I started sobering up and getting into recovery, I was sitting in the darkest corner of every room I met in, including my counselor's office. It was more comfortable and hidden away. The problem was, I was hidden. I needed a way to open up and to speak to people, to "let others see in, so I could see out," as I was told.
I don't communicate verbally as well as I do in writing. This has been the case for as long as I can remember. But I was told over and over that I needed to express, or I couldn't heal. This was very difficult for me to do, so my counselor suggested I write. I didn't feel like writing would help, but I did it anyway. Eventually, I concluded that if no one could actually read/hear what I was saying or understand what going through, then it was pointless; so she suggested that I send my writings to her.
So I did.
I began writing many, many long emails to my counselor, so much so that she couldn't keep up with them. I began to feel like I was becoming burdensome to her, so I began to rethink writing anything at all!
But, the miracle was working, the writing was helping...
Still, I began to doubt that I had anything to really say. I felt like all I was doing was complaining and being bothersome, not to mention that I was too embarrassed to let people know who I was, what I'd been through, or why and how. So if I was going to start "letting others see in," I would have to be able to express while hiding in the dark — it was the only way I could do it; it was the only way I knew how.
I started a secondary Facebook account completely separate from my own, and created a secret, simple page. It was a tool for me to anonymously talk. Anonymously. The one, big factor that I needed so I could open up; the key was not shutting down because of embarrassment or fear. Anonymity in writing provided this. Soon, blogging became my daily, therapeutic outlet. It was a place I could slow down and think, work through ideas and troubles, and makes sense of my argumentative, racing mind. The suicidal thoughts diminished in those moments, and a freedom I never knew before began to light my path. I could see what I was trying to say, and then -- it clicked.
It occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, someone else could benefit from my writings. If they saw an ordinary guy going through daily life, the ups and downs, the questions and wonders and thought processes, maybe they could relate. If they could relate, maybe they could find some hope. If they could find just a smidgen of hope, then maybe they could decide to live, even if just for that day -- or better, longer.
And Drunkless was born.
Drunkless.com became my Opening-Up Project. Since I first began Drunkless, my Recovery through creating this site has greatly improved my ability to open up and talk -- even verbally; though I still find writing is my greatest way to release and process my thoughts, ideas, and problems. It has become my greatest asset in this respect, and I couldn't keep it to myself any longer.
I knew of a couple of people who'd expressed enthusiasm for wanting to blog. So I began to come out of the dark corner, and I shared.
We are now a group of writers, podcasters, artists, musicians, and creativists that are experiencing Recovery through Sobriety. We each have a passion for living a healthy, sober life, which includes physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and social life. The topics will range widely, so there will be a great mix of subjects, feelings, and life. The rules are quite simple. We do it because it is important to us. We do it because it works, it helps us process, and helps us grow. We do it because we care. We do it because we're passionate about expressing our experience, strength, and most importantly -- our hope. We do it because just maybe, someone else will see it can be done, and hopefully they can find a way out of their Hell, too.
Alcoholism/addiction and mental health doesn't have to kill us... we just have to know it. So we share it.
A single candle can light a thousand more and never diminish its own brilliance.
To partially quote Marianne Williamson:
We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others."
Marianne Williamson - Our Greatest Fear
May you find the peace and serenity that you crave in your life,
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